Sunday, 17 January 2010

Cul-de-sac Sunday


There were two choices today.....not blog, or write a grumpy, depressing one. Since this post has arrived, I've decided on the second option. Apologies for that.


Life, at the moment, isn't easy. At all. I'm not going to go into details but I'm going through some emotional issues, some of which have resurfaced after years of convincing me they'd gone. They haven't and so I have now made the brave move to tackle them head on. It's scary, especially on top of everything else going on at the moment. That does mean the next few months, at least, are going to be rather like a roller coaster.


What I always find difficult to is that when you are dealing with emotional problems, there are also real life problems too. If only you could pause the world so that you could just deal with the inside issues for a while, then hit play again when you were ready. But you can't, no matter how much you may want to. The two play against each other, jarring and causing no end of added friction. And when you think you may have found a way forward in one world, it doesn't fit in the other. This has been my finding today, having decided upon a course of action that seemed to show a light forward, reality has rendered it impossible and dumped more dirt on top of the path just for good measure. Now it's certainly a cul-de-sac, for the time being at least.


So life isn't easy, that's not really news to any of us is it? A friend told me of a saying she had seen outside a church the other day 'Calm waters do not make a good sailor' - no, maybe not. But I've never been that into sailing.....give me the calm waters, I'll go for a swim!

9 comments:

Julie P said...

Sorry to hear of your troubles. I do sympathise. I hope things get better for you soon.

Julie

kestrel said...

I hope you get through the bad patch. Think of the problems as bad patches, and as you move on, you leave them behind. I try to live using this motto - Change what I can, Accept what I cannot change and GOD please give me the wisdom to differentiate between the two. Wish you calm waters...

Jayne said...

Julie - thank you, I appreciate that.

kestrel - thank you too. I will certainly keep that in mind.

Carol Anne Strange said...

I hope you find your own sea of inner calm, Jayne, so that you have the space to resolve what is needed. Sending you bright wishes and lots of love to help you through. Keep smiling! xx

Jayne said...

Carol - thank you. I think of you a lot, you're an inspiration to me through these rough waters. Much love xx

Debs said...

I try to remember the old adage, 'this too will pass', so hopefully it will pass for you soon. x

Paul said...

Love that painting!

You keep that chin up, and keep looking into the sun - it will cover you with a warm glow eventually!

Jayne said...

Debs - thank you. That's another one to keep in mind x
Pabs - glad you like the painting :) and thank you for all your support. x

Suzanne Jones said...

Thinking of you Jayne. Sometimes things just seem to conspire against us.

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